I have always had God in my life, always. Even when I haven't understood everything or when I have been very very mad. I don't know why he does what he does, I know I learn alot from it, but still don't understand alot, I have basically given up trying to understand him, hehe!! But I believe in him with my whole being. This brings me to my following comments.
When Chris & I were told that not only did I have a fertility problem, but so did he, our hearts broke. I got mad, very mad. I wanted God to answer my one question. Why us? Why a couple who are good people and would make great parents have problems procreating? Yet the drug addicts and unfit adults can have children and pop them out one after another? There are many ways to answer this question, but I wanted God's answer right then. Of course I got a different answer. And I am very grateful for that answer. God made man in his own image. We have the technology to "trick" mother nature into having Children and for that I am grateful. Forever grateful. I still don't understand the "Why" and I never will.
Today I found out a dear friend of mine is having fertility problems also, my heart goes out to her and her family. I know that she is going to succeed at this! She succeeds at everything and I look up to her for that!! Always with a SMILE! (You now who you are!) No one should have to go thru it, but if you do, remember that you are not alone. You have many days you fill that way, but your not. I have felt like a failure for so long. What did I do wrong to have a fertility problem? Did I drink to much Coke? Was I on birth control to long? Who knows? But going thru the fertility struggle flat out sucks.
Ok - getting off my soap box. On a brighter note, got my fertility meds today! YIPPEE!! We start on Sunday! Tomorrow is our class on how we take the meds. Have I mentioned at all that they are injections! Shots! In my skin! That I have to do! Ok - I will make Chris do it! Oh boy!
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