Charlie Horse

Since around month two of being prego - I have been getting cramps in my calves. Nothing big, doesn't even really phase me. Each time I get them I think myself "Self, we can handle these cramps!" Yes - we could handle those cramps - but not the infamous charlie horse. And oh boy did I get one last night. It came out of no where and smacked me right in the left calf. The words out of my mouth were "Son of a....oooo.....where did...aaaa.....that come from.....ouch!" I am positive I cursed (potty mouth). Those, I can't handle and it's only the beginning!! To all the prego ladies or ladies that have ever been prego - I am so sorry I wasn't more sympathetic. I owe you all ice cream! So if you are awaken in the middle of the night by a blood curtailing scream, it's me, dying of a charlie horse!

PS - Do your emotions ever get better?? Or should I expect to continue crying at everything??

Complete Honesty

A few quick things - So at our last appointment, we had a shy baby, legs crossed right in front of the banana or muffin. Should I be surprised we have a stubborn Heslop/Remkes baby, absolutely not. I know I keep saying I don't care if its a boy or girl; but I lie, I really want a little girl. I am really so glad we can have babies ($15k later, worth every penny) and I don't want to be picky, but for right now I am. So far, everyone I know due in November is having a boy, everyone in October is having a girl - we are due on November 4th; the borderline. This tempts me not to find out and see what happens, but can I decorate in neutrals?? Everyone that knows me, just said "Nope", you know me well. Next Tuesday the 8th (Happy B-day Laura) we got see a specialist. No worries, my doc just wants to make sure everything is growing how it is supposed to be. The baby is fine, but he wants to have everything else checked. I am so glad he is so sincere and cares. The specialist has a 3D machine - so hopefully we will see what we are having! I need to take another belly pick - it has grown. And since it is now growing - I felt the baby move Saturday. So far that has been it, but to feel it, I have to lay really really still and for me, I just don't get the opportunity very often to sit still. Only a couple more weeks and I have a feeling the baby won't stop moving!

Now moving on to the "complete honesty" part. Before I get into it - I want everyone to know that I am so grateful and so very thankful that we have been given the opportunity to have our own kids. I do not take any of it for granted and I thank God every single day. Being "complete honest", I really haven't enjoyed being prego. Every tells me to get thru the first 4-5 months and it will get better. I so have my fingers crossed for that. I want to love it and I want to do it again, but right now, we are only having one child (in all honestly, we will have another). It has been hard from the beginning. The progesterone shots were a killer - bruises and knots that we so painful; then the sickness (I wish I could have thrown up in the morning and been fine - but I was sick all day); the tiredness - I can so work thru that; the emotions - oh the emotions! I have spent nights crying because I feel guilty for not enjoying being prego! But like I said before. I am so grateful for this opportunity! I would never change it, EVER! I know everything I am feeling is so very normal and should be expected, but ok - bring on the good parts! I am so ready!!

Thanks again for all the support and letting me vent. The reality of having a baby is getting stronger and stronger everyday. By Thanksgiving we will have our own baby with only two legs, not four!!

Bump!

Alright - here is it!! This is the "bump" at 14.5 weeks. It has a grown a little bit more, but not much. As most of you know, tomorrow is the big day!! YEAH!! The majority of the vote has been a girl, but there have been a few boys also. I am a little sad, Chris is stuck in Reno for work and can't get home. He has tried everything to get here, but just can't swing it. So - I am going by myself, but I am still excited! I have plans in mind to suprise Chris - so be patient, I will let everyone know tomorrow around 6ish once Chris knows!!

Everthing else is going great. The sickness is still getting better and better and the Coke is tasting better and better too!! I am finally eating good again. I was eating before, but I had to force myself. Now food sounds good and taste's good. I am still way tired, but that is due to how much I am working, the money is good though and we need it!

Changes

I think I missed the memo. I knew my body was going to go thru alot of changes, but I didn't think about some of the changes. I am going to keep this rated PG - and I am sure everyone that has been prego can defiantly relate. I knew my belly would grow, my pants wouldn't fit anymore, the pantie line would dig into my skin, meaning I need to man up and getting some bigger ones, stretch marks and varicose veins were a given. I can deal with those, easy.

I have had 3 new things develop over the last 48 hours. The first one had me doubled over. Lets just say if I was a guy I was just kicked/hit you know where. Yes! The pelvic bones and round ligaments have started preparing for the departure in sixish months. That was a pain I did not expect. Did not even see it coming. Didn't even think I would have a pain like that. I have heard of hips spreading, but WOW!! My next great develop was a rash on the back of my legs. I asked a few friends and this is related to pregnancy. Really, a rash. Wearing levi's makes my legs itch like a thousand tiny mosquito bite - so pj bottoms it is. Don't judge me if you see me in Walmart or at the Gas Station - I am a proud and round prego girl! Number 3 I think is the worst and that is because I have NEVER EVER had one of these. A cold sore. That's all that has to be said.

When all of these first happened I literally would say "Really?!?!?!" and then bust out laughing. I so misjudged our bodies and I am so Thankful that the man upstairs prepared our bodies and our minds to deal with this. I know I am getting round and many changes are headed my way. But I love my body and I know my hubby does. If you don't like, don't look. The best part to my pelvic movement, Chris walked by right then and asked what was wrong. I had tears in my eyes from the pain and then had started laughing. So I told him and he really tried hard not to laugh, but he so felt my pain. What a growing experience for both of us.

I did have one thing that totally made my week!! A big shout out and Thanks to Kim for letting me hold little Ashton. He is adorable and I can't wait for Britt's in a couple weeks. I am excited for our little one to get here. I am even more excited that Egg Drop is cooking away in my belly (still creeps me out a bit) and growing fast. I really can't believe we are almost 4 months along! It is becoming more and more real every week!

I gave in

So I gave in. I called my doc yesterday to let them know about my abdominal pain. I went in today and what do you know - everything is perfectly fine! LOL!! The doc was glad I did come see him though. He is thinking the rest of my sits and follicals were slughing off my ovaries and my ligaments and muscles have started to move and stretch. I love my doctor! If you need a new one or think of switching, I totally recommend him. Dr Rodney Merrill. Anyways, he looked at the baby and Egg Drop is looking perfect. Doing exactly what a 14 week old should be doing. We go back in two weeks with hopes to see if we are having a drama queen or hunter! (Chris is hoping for a drama queen!)

Thank you so much for all the wonderful comments and no comments! I am so grateful for the support and love I have!

Am I Paranoid??

I am sure I am not the only one that has done something while prego and then become very paranoid. But I have to ask, am I the only one?? The doc gave me permission to drink caffeine again, so I have been having coke's here and there, but still drinking my other fluids (powerade, blah). I also had and emotional breakdown on Sunday and cried hard. I know the pregnancy makes the emotions worse - but it was a hard cry for at least 30 minutes. I know the stress is not good and last week and weekend was terrible. We have had a lot of things happen at once and my stress level and emotions have changed so much. I really don't know how to control and handle the emotions - they have a mind of their own! Which I am sure alot of you can relate to. But now I am worried that I have done something to hurt the baby and the pregnancy. I don't go back to the doc until the 19th. For peace of mind or to know if something happened - should I call and go in now or wait?? Do you think I could of hurt the baby? Or is this another part of pregnancy - being paranoid?? Help me friends!!

An update

I am so sorry - I can't kick being so tired - so I go to work all day and come home and sleep! I promise to be better. So here is what has been going on. The sickness is finally getting better. I can eat alot more (I am already gaining the tummy weight), my gag reflex has calmed down, but it hasn't gone away. I still gag every time I brush my teeth and if my belly is upset - plan on some type of gag. I so wish that would go away. I still won't eat any type of ground beef. I have no idea why. I love hamburgers, but I can't do it. Steak & Chicken. I also eat a lot of noodles.

I had my first coke two weeks ago! My first one in three months!! It was like liquid gold going down my throat, it was heaven!! I can have caffeine again, but have to limit it to here's and there's. Plus I don't need a sugar high baby or me!

We had a doc's appointment last week and everything looks great! We got to hear the heartbeat, that was simply amazing! We also got to see the heartbeat and see the baby. I was good until the baby moved, then I freaked. I didn't feel anything, should I have felt something - no worries the doc says, your won't feel it for a couple more weeks. The doc was going to look to see if Egg Drop is a boy or girl - we are having an umbilical cord right now. Yup - right in between the legs. Next time. We go back in two weeks to look again and get all the blood work done. We will then go see a specialist two weeks after that to make sure that everything is growing right since we got prego thru Invitro.

Everything is on the up and up! We have a lot of new projects we have been working at the house and for the house. Things could get exciting in the next month - I will tell you all about when it all happens! Yeah is all I am going to say!

PS - Still have late night feedings - this kid likes to eat - and not healthy things!! The latest and greatest at our house is Capri Suns to drink, Starburst to snack on and a Banana Creamy in bed! YUM!