Excited!

Now that I know we are having a boy - I am ready!! I am ready to do the nursery! Buy some clothes and I am ready to pick out a name! I told Chris yesterday that I was sure we were having a girl, probably because I grew up with girls, no boys. ZERO! Didn't have brothers at all! So here we go! Lets get his boy here! I am so excited!

Here we go!!

I know I said I wanted a girl, but I am even more excited we are having a BOY!!! Oh the endless possiblities!! Chris is already planning on taking him hunting next year and he wants to buy him a gun when he is born!! Here we go!!

We are so suprised, we don't know any names!! If you have some you want to share, please do!

Belly Update

This isn't a very good picture, but Derek snuck one it at breakfast Saturday!! I am glad I didn't have a mouth full of food! We are almost to the half way mark! As of today we are 18.5 weeks! And hopefully we will know what we are having tomorrow morning, let's cross our fingers the baby will uncross it's legs this time!!

The belly is growing, but the only maternity clothes I have been wearing are shirts. Thank goodness for the belly band!! Everyone keeps telling me how comfy the maternity pants are, but I just can't bring myself to get any yet!

Movement

Houston - We have movement! I have to be sitting or laying down to feel it, but there is movement. I am surprised at how low the movement is. For some reason, I figured it would be higher (I know, give myself a couple months)! I don't know if they are feet or fists, but the baby is moving. The first time I realized what it was, I freaked, but now it's kinda interesting. Chris has become very jealous and wants to feel it way bad. He is constantly asking me "Can you feel it right now?"

Kellie asked me a question on my last post - Do I have "mom-nesia", the answer, YES!! I forgot small things at first, what was I supposed to take with me?? Oh yeah, we are supposed to go to dinner with your Mom? Now I forget everyday things!! I swear if my bra & underwear didn't have tags, I wouldn't know how to put them on. It's bizarre!! So I ask you - if you see me and I am wearing an outfit that is hideous or my makeup is done wrong, please don't leave me alone, come and save me!

Charlie Horse

Since around month two of being prego - I have been getting cramps in my calves. Nothing big, doesn't even really phase me. Each time I get them I think myself "Self, we can handle these cramps!" Yes - we could handle those cramps - but not the infamous charlie horse. And oh boy did I get one last night. It came out of no where and smacked me right in the left calf. The words out of my mouth were "Son of a....oooo.....where did...aaaa.....that come from.....ouch!" I am positive I cursed (potty mouth). Those, I can't handle and it's only the beginning!! To all the prego ladies or ladies that have ever been prego - I am so sorry I wasn't more sympathetic. I owe you all ice cream! So if you are awaken in the middle of the night by a blood curtailing scream, it's me, dying of a charlie horse!

PS - Do your emotions ever get better?? Or should I expect to continue crying at everything??

Complete Honesty

A few quick things - So at our last appointment, we had a shy baby, legs crossed right in front of the banana or muffin. Should I be surprised we have a stubborn Heslop/Remkes baby, absolutely not. I know I keep saying I don't care if its a boy or girl; but I lie, I really want a little girl. I am really so glad we can have babies ($15k later, worth every penny) and I don't want to be picky, but for right now I am. So far, everyone I know due in November is having a boy, everyone in October is having a girl - we are due on November 4th; the borderline. This tempts me not to find out and see what happens, but can I decorate in neutrals?? Everyone that knows me, just said "Nope", you know me well. Next Tuesday the 8th (Happy B-day Laura) we got see a specialist. No worries, my doc just wants to make sure everything is growing how it is supposed to be. The baby is fine, but he wants to have everything else checked. I am so glad he is so sincere and cares. The specialist has a 3D machine - so hopefully we will see what we are having! I need to take another belly pick - it has grown. And since it is now growing - I felt the baby move Saturday. So far that has been it, but to feel it, I have to lay really really still and for me, I just don't get the opportunity very often to sit still. Only a couple more weeks and I have a feeling the baby won't stop moving!

Now moving on to the "complete honesty" part. Before I get into it - I want everyone to know that I am so grateful and so very thankful that we have been given the opportunity to have our own kids. I do not take any of it for granted and I thank God every single day. Being "complete honest", I really haven't enjoyed being prego. Every tells me to get thru the first 4-5 months and it will get better. I so have my fingers crossed for that. I want to love it and I want to do it again, but right now, we are only having one child (in all honestly, we will have another). It has been hard from the beginning. The progesterone shots were a killer - bruises and knots that we so painful; then the sickness (I wish I could have thrown up in the morning and been fine - but I was sick all day); the tiredness - I can so work thru that; the emotions - oh the emotions! I have spent nights crying because I feel guilty for not enjoying being prego! But like I said before. I am so grateful for this opportunity! I would never change it, EVER! I know everything I am feeling is so very normal and should be expected, but ok - bring on the good parts! I am so ready!!

Thanks again for all the support and letting me vent. The reality of having a baby is getting stronger and stronger everyday. By Thanksgiving we will have our own baby with only two legs, not four!!

Bump!

Alright - here is it!! This is the "bump" at 14.5 weeks. It has a grown a little bit more, but not much. As most of you know, tomorrow is the big day!! YEAH!! The majority of the vote has been a girl, but there have been a few boys also. I am a little sad, Chris is stuck in Reno for work and can't get home. He has tried everything to get here, but just can't swing it. So - I am going by myself, but I am still excited! I have plans in mind to suprise Chris - so be patient, I will let everyone know tomorrow around 6ish once Chris knows!!

Everthing else is going great. The sickness is still getting better and better and the Coke is tasting better and better too!! I am finally eating good again. I was eating before, but I had to force myself. Now food sounds good and taste's good. I am still way tired, but that is due to how much I am working, the money is good though and we need it!