Patience

I don't have any.  None.  Zero.  But I do believe the quote.  You have control over your life, but sometimes, you have to let life happen.  Today, I have paced.  I have cried.  I have stressed.  I want my husband home.  He will be home tomorrow after the pregnancy test.  He continues to tell me that it's going to be ok and that whatever happens, it's meant to be.  Good or bad.  I must allow tomorrow to unfold and follow what my path is.  Patience (go suck it!)

Bed Rest

Three days alone, doing nothing, sound fabulous right? Wrong.  Halfway thru day 2 and I am over it.  It's so hard to sit still.  You really can only watch so much Netflix, read and sit, before wanting to go outside and just walk around.  But, it is totally worth it and I will sit and let those embryo's do what they need to do.  In the meantime, Chris has been a fantastic help! He took the whole week off to help with Weston and help around the house.  In fact, today he took Weston fishing with friends and they had a blast!

Transfer Day

Well, here we are! After all the prep and time, we are finally to Transfer Day!! We arrived at the clinic in Pleasant Grove, were taken back to our room, and this was waiting for us.  A lucky pair of socks! I was so excited! I put those puppies on as fast as I could! I will take any luck I can get!

The infamous chair with stirrups, just waiting. 

 You could say, I was freaking out a little bit.  Just a bit.  Chris had a level head the whole time, haha!

 After waiting, what felt like an eternity, Dr Gurtcheff came in and gave our news about the embryos.  Out of the 8 that were growing, we ended up with 6 really good ones.  Next, was decision making time.  How many embryos do we put in? How big of a chance was it to get twins, etc.  Once we saw the picture below, we knew the answer without hesitation.  Put two in.  The top two pictures are the embryos that were implanted.  The other 4 have been frozen.

A very beautiful picture of my uterus, willing and waiting for implantation.

 The embryo's have been implanted and now we wait.  And wait. And wait.  I have to stay on bed rest for the next 3 days, continue the progesterone suppositories and wait for the 19th to roll around.  That is pregnancy test day.  It's going to be a long few days.

I also want to add really quick; we know everyone has different views about IVF and how the process works.  We value what you believe and what you think and we support you.  Please, do the same for us.  We do not know at this time what we are going to do with the frozen embryo's.  We don't even know if the two that were implanted are going to work.  Please, just pray for us that we will make the decision that is best for our family.  All we ask if for your support, even if our opinion is different than ours.  Loves!

Growing babies

Today we got the phone call to update on our embryo's.  All 8 are still growing.  Seven of them are doing great, and the eighth one has slowed down a bit.  That's ok.  Our goal is to get 2-3 embryo's and hopefully pregnant.  We go back to the Pleasant Grove clinic on Tuesday at 2pm for the transfer.  Transfer day is the worst day for me.  Once that embryo is implanted, I feel like all the pressure is on me and my body for it to work.  Lots of prayers are happening.  Lots of toes, fingers, wishes and anything you can think of is happening in this house.

How many Embryos? And Progesterone

This is our 4th round of IVF.  Each time we have done a round, I have needed progesterone.  Progesterone is the natural hormone that is created when you become pregnant.  Its what help your body from miscarriages and early delivery.  The first round we did, at 8pm every night, I would begin crying.  I hated the progesterone shots.  They are a thick liquid that you have to place into your hip/butt.  Imagine putting honey in a syringe and then shooting it into you skin.  Not fun.  The second round we did, I had a reaction to the oil base in the progesterone and I got hives.  The third time, we ordered a different oil base progesterone that was a bit thicker and left nasty bumps and bruises on my backside.  This time around, I get to try something new again.  Vaginal suppositories; and I love them! No pain.  No needle.  No bruises.  Downside, I have to take one 3 times a day, but I can handle that.  It's very simple to do and takes under a minute. 

 Onto EMBRYOS!! The embryologist called me today.  Remember those 15 eggs, 8 of the fertilized! 8! Holy moly! We were hope for 4-5.  We are pretty pumped and excited.  We will get a phone on Sunday to update us on the growth of the embryos and the time for the transfer Tuesday.  Day by day it is getting more real. 

Egg Retrieval Day

Today was Egg Retrieval day! And boy, did it go pretty good! We had to be at the clinic by 7:15am. Grandma Lee went with my, while Aunt Mandy & Uncle Danny watched Weston.  Chris had to go back to Colorado Springs to work, that way he can take all of next week off to help with Weston while I am on bed rest after the egg transfer on Tuesday.

 We made it to the clinic on time and they took me back to get started.  The first time we did an egg retrieval, they didn't knock my out all the way; this time they did, and it was heavenly.  I had my good luck socks on and we were good to go.  I had a great nap and during that nap, they were able to retrieve 15 eggs!! Much more than we expected.  Dr Gurtcheff was very pleased and said everything looked great! Chris & I are so excited!! Fingers crossed we get some good embryo's.

 Grandma Lee came in and sat with me for about 30 minutes and we headed home.

(Don't you just love the no makeup look)

Once we got home, I rest and relaxed.  For the most part, I did ok.  I had small pain on my ovaries, but my stomach was another thing.  Every time I would eat, I would get a sharp pain on the upper end of my stomach.  I knew I had to stay hydrated, so the remaining follicles would stay calm and my ovaries wouldn't hyper stimulate.  All and all, I feel ok.  Definitely worth it!

Pregnancy Test

Well, well.  I have never ever taken a pregnancy test that has been positive.  That is one thing I could say on, never have I ever.

 But now I can! My first positive pregnancy test and I'm not even pregnant! The whole point of the pregnancy test is to make sure I have enough HCG in my system.  Thank goodness it has all worked

The rest of today is pretty simple, I don't have to do anything, besides a water & vinegar douche (I know TMI).  Tomorrow is the big day for egg harvest! Fingers crossed, toes crossed and lots of prayers!