Delay on Baby #2

What happens when you receive great news!! You get excited!! But for me, I got bummed, yet very excited!! So....who enters those contests that you think no one wins?? I do. ALL THE TIME!!! I am a total sucker!! I have never won and never planned on winning. EAT YOUR WORDS HOLLY!!! I totally won!! I won an all expenses paid trip for a Polar Bear Expedition!! All paid for by Coca Cola!! WAHOO!!!!! www.nathab.com/polar-bear-tours/classic-polar-bear-expedition/

Bad part - we have to use it this year and the dates are this October or November. You do the math. Transfer and embryo on February 7th, last period the week before, due date for baby October 24th. Crap!!

• Could I leave a newborn home?? I think I could manage.


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  But what if they transfer two embryos and we have twins?


• What if they are early?


• What if we have another sick baby in the hospital? .

After asking ourselves these questions and more, we decided to be selfish and take the trip and hold off on the next baby. Disappointed, absolutely. Excited to go see the polar bears for free - HECK YES!!!

Update

Time for an update! Last Tuesday Dec 27th we met with the docs again. The did a trial transfer and a sonohystagram to make sure that my insides were still ok from being prego with Weston and labor and delivery. I passed with flying colors. I don't know if I should Thank Weston or the doc for not tearing my insides apart, lol!! After we met with the doc, we sat down with a nurse and went over all our information. We found out that we will have the choice to transfer 1 or 2 embryo's, depending on how they look. The cost won't cost us anymore or any less. We are still only responsible for the cost of the meds. The meds have been ordered and I start the Lupron shot this coming Sunday the 8th. I start Estrogen pills a couple weeks after. This round, that's it for meds, except for the lovely progesterone at the end for about 12 weeks, yuck!

The part that we are having deja vu with - Weston was transferred on February 16th - these embryo's will be transferred February 7th!! So, if it all works out, we will have two kids under the age of 2!

Birth Control

So, here we are on day 3 and the beginning of birth control. Ugh, hate it!!

The "Secret" Update

Ok - so we decided that since we pay close to $3000 a year to keep our children frozen, we figured, what the hell, let's have a baby! We called and made an appointment and met with the doc's. Sad part, the doctors we saw last time, both retired. Very sad, but very happy for them! Our new doctor is Dr. Erica Johnstone, she is way nice. So we ran over the logistics of the procedures and how it all works. This time around instead of paying $15,000 (which we only have $4000 left to pay off!) we only have to pay $3500. Phew!! That helps alot on the pocket book. We were also informed that the study we signed up for when we got knocked up with Weston is still valid. So since we transferred ONE FRESH embryo, the will PAY to transfer ONE FROZEN embryo!! Say WHAT!! You will pay!! Sign us up!! We do have to pay for the meds, so under $1000!! SAY WHAT!!!

After our appointment we let everything sink in and talked about a lot of different options. Is now the perfect time, should we wait, what if it does work, what if it doesn't; you say the questions and we asked them.

So the decision - YUP! We are going to try for #2!! We have been waiting for my period to start and today is the day!! The flow began!! Here we go!! I am so not ready to be a human pin cushion again, but we both know that #2 needs to come ASAP. It's amazing how God communicates with you and let's you know. So to my next child - Please be easy on me. No heart defects (been there, done that). Please be healthy with no problems. I don't care if you are a girl or boy, I just hope you are as perfect as your big brother!!

Hold on tight - cause here we go!!1

Sshhhhh!!! It's a secret!!

So everyone knows I don't update this blog very often, but let's see who is reading it!! If you want to know my secret, leave a comment or a guess and I will tell you!! I will however give you one hint!

Fear

You would think that when Weston was born and going through all that he did that I would have been terrified of him not waking up or something horrible. Don't get me wrong, I was afraid, but in my mind, it couldn't get much worse than what we were and had gone through. Now that he is growing up and his heart is great, I am more afraid. The nights he sleeps through the night, I am terrified to go and check on him. I am so scared to find something I don't want to find. Does this fear ever go away or am I now a mom and will always be afraid for him? Or am I skeptical because I now know that anything could happen to anyone at any given time. Hopefully by talking (blogging) about my fear, I will be able to get it over it and keep telling myself that God loves me and won't give me anything that I can't handle, but please God, don't put me through something else with Weston. That was way to hard.

Weston Cardio Update

On Monday we went to Primary Children's and saw Dr Miller and Dr Puchalski and got great news! Weston has gained a great amount of weight and has also gained height. Since he has increased so much, they took him off the Lasix medication that was helping keep fluid off of his lungs; before they did they listened to his heart and lungs and skipped the chest xray. Now the concern is how well his heart is going to do as he grows. As long as the leak in his pulmonary valve stays small and the coronary arteries don't have to much stress on him, we are good to go. If not, surgery again. The chance for surgery is very very minimal. So for now, they said enjoy Weston and let him live his life as a regular boy! The next words out of their mouth, "See you in a year!" YIPPEE!!