Bittersweet

Today is a bittersweet day.  I had my follow up and last appointment with my fertility doc, Dr Gurtcheff.  She has been amazing and wonderful to go thru this process with.  We have been so blessed to have her in our lives!

Last night, I decided to ask my mom to go with me to my appointment, Chris couldn't make it home for this one, even though he tried (out of town projects suck).  My appointment was at 11am, we headed down and waited.  Dr Gurtcheff started the ultra sound and went immediately to Baby B, who looks great! Strong heartbeat and is growing great! Baby A on the other hand, no longer has a heartbeat.  The medical term for this is "vanishing twin" and happens often.  Many mothers don't know about it because it happens before the first ultrasound.  It does raise our pregnancy risk a bit higher, as it could effect Baby B; but it should dissolve back into my body.  We are devastated.  Yet, we are eternally grateful for Baby B!  We are feeling many emotions and working thru it.  Chris FaceTime with us and we were both able to tell Weston about Baby A.  He is such a sweet kid and has been very understanding.  He said he is sad, but know his baby is in heaven.

 So here we are! Expecting! It still doesn't feel real.  After one success, two failed attempts, here we are with another success!!  Our due date is April 27, 2017........my 36th birthday! How crazy is that timing! And I am more than willing to share a birthday!! Now to let baby grow and develop.  We need to make it to week 10 and should be out of the clear.  Only a few more to go. 

I go see my OBGYN next week and I continue the progesterone suppositories until the 29th.  I am on baby aspirin also until October 13th to help with blood clots.