Meds, meds and more meds

A lot has changed on the medicine front, yet nothing has changed.  I took my last birth control pill on Sunday January 25th and I noticed an immediate change in my attitude, I don't feel as grumpy as I was.  Birth control has always done that to me.  Thank goodness I will never have to be on it again.

On Wednesday January 28th I decreased my Lupron injections to 5u, which is so small it seems like it's not even worth it.  But it does work.  I also started my estrogen pills.  Half a pill in the morning and half a pill at night. I struggled with an estrogen headache for a few days, along with caffeine withdrawals, it's been tough.  I have been using my DoTerra Lavender oil to help though.

Just yesterday my estrogen intake changed.  I now take 3 pills in one day.  So far, I'm ok, since I am only on day 2.  I have noticed my body changing (just like it did on the other two rounds); I get a lot of cramping, headaches and I have no appetite.  I have lost more weight than I should and I have been drinking protein shakes and Gatorade to help my levels.  When we got pregnant with Weston, I found out that I have a sodium deficiency; I don't keep enough in my body.  That is where the headaches come into play.  So Gatorade is my friend.

We find out on Tuesday what day we will be doing the transfer.  It will be one day of  Feb 16-18. It all depends on the lining of my uterus and if it is ready to receive the embryos. It seems like we just started the process, yet it has taken so long.  January was a long month of waiting until the shots started.  Now it just seems to be flying by.

I did have a realization moment the other day.  This is it.  If it works, we will have another baby (or 2) and if it doesn't work, we will have Weston, who is enough.  The finality of it has become a reality.  We have talked about doing the process over from step 1 and we have decided that we have done enough.  We have done enough.  God as given us one little miracle that we love and adore.  Maybe we will look into other options like adoption; but for now.  We have done enough and we are grateful either way.  Baby or no baby.

Thanks for all the extra love and prayers.  Add some extra ones for a dear friend of ours who just completed their round of IVF and are doing the "waiting" process for the pregnancy test.  Medical science has come so far and I am grateful that God has allowed man to do it.